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Dear Listener, I am a poor talented schizophrenic musician, I barely get by on disability, I seldom have enough money for food, I used my brothers computer and the instruments I had around to make these CDs. Every Day I wonder if I'll ever make it, but it just doesn't look good. No one has bought a single cd. I must not be much of a musician. My tip Jar is empty, I can't leave my dream of being a musician, I lived on the floor of my friends apartment, for four years to have enough to get equipment to pay for this music, I will play unto poverty if I have to. At least I can say I followed my dreams because music is my passion. It's disheartening that I have music that is at least good enough to be interesting, yet my pockets are empty when people have the ability to help out this performer, who gives there all, yet they seem to just pass like the desert sand. When I started I wanted to give something to the people of Earth that I care for a great deal, on Earth it seams like theres a lot of us but to the universe we don't have enough to ever fill. I still like to entertain, but there is no performer without an audience, or a few pennies in the hat after a small song and dance, and i'm not even getting pennies for the last fifteen years of work that was so hard I felt like I was going to have a stroke, because I had to do everything, with little rescources and no money doing eleven peoples worth of work just to make this CD (from composing it playing it to recording it and editing it, to producing and marketing and web design). I'm broken from it really, just wish I had something to show for it, when I look at my father I wish I could say to him I sold a cd today, it would brighten his eyes because he bought me my first guitar when we had little money, and we would stay up and listen to music together and I would play guitar for him sometimes it was really fun sometimes my father was so broken from work it was hard to entertain or be fun on those nights. Just to show my father I was a success, I wish I could say Poppa I sold some CDs today I am not a failure. I am just asking for help from those who can give it, if you can't help me at least help yourself and do just one thing to fight global warming, you'd be surprised what a difference it makes, I'm just tired of hot weather, it's one thing to get a sunburn it's another to be broke and get a sunburn...I still have to struggle just to buy food, I thought this was America where you make a product you sell it and you survive, at least I'm succesful at that(making a product for sale, not selling anything), I usually have a piece of bread or Ramen to live off of and I found a way to buy one box of 2 dollar green tea and make 40 pitchers of tea, I am a musician but I looked into marketing because I figured I had to to sell. It costs a lot of money, it works but all I can do now is put up flyers at colleges, that just seem to blow away. I have four websites and still no one cares, I like my old hero Kurt Cobain who said people don't appreciate things till there gone, and he was absolutly right. I could be Mozart, no one would give a damn until I was dead, because I am disabled I can't drive or afford a car and to join a band for the real marketing you have to be mobile, I went on craigslist to find band members to no avail. God I wish someone would help me out of this suffering, Again today all I have is ramen and a hamburger bun in the refrigerator, and some mayo I can put on it:) that's a good day!!! Somehow though today I found some chinese lunch tickets and got some chicken and pork it was a miracle of god. I don't understand how the big time musicians can make a piece of art or an old bootleg of a song and make thousands, when I put everything I had into my cds and they are worthless, absolutly worthless, it reminds me of the Late Vaughn Bode who drew the comics Junk Waffle and Cheech Wizard, he went to a professional convention and managed to get his art displayed, but all the pros put him down, he went mad and died in a strange accident, but his comics hit big time in France and America and his style became the basis for modern comics and Graffiti Art, then the pros said if they had known it was Vaughn Bode and had paid a little more attention to his work they would have seen the skill and mastery and appreciate him as a contemporary. I am not like Pink Floyd, or Linkin Park, I am more like Nick Blinko a schizophrenic Punk from the 80's who inspired Nirvana and is a famous artist the world over, drawing pictures of lots of skeletons. I have been told I am like beethoven, Jimi hendrix, John lennon, Ozzy, but really it makes me sad. Because if I were like these people I would see my music go somewhere besides sitting in boxes in my bedroom. I used to smoke cigarettes a lot because of this depression, I would make these songs to play loud on headphones so when I started a song and lit up a cigarette the world went away! for five minutes I was in Nirvana, and I kept making these songs to do just that, turn on the song light up the smoke, leave this bad place, over and over, And these songs never let me down, they were jewels when I made them they are still to this day, I don't smoke anymore but I still have these songs and every once in a while I listen and remember, turn on the song light up the smoke, leave this bad place, over and over. Most great bands only ever have one hit song, on average out of the 80 they ever do, do you have any idea how much work that is? It's unreal. A lot of people think to themself I should have been a star! I think to myself it's madness. No one should ever have to feel this way, but there's the hope that if someday maybe the piper will get paid he won't starve to death, that's kind of a cosmic joke: to be a piper and get ready to lead the mice away from the city, but there's no mice so the piper plays and no one listens and no one pays...These cds are more archiological, in that there are only 7 schizophrenic musicians that made the big time, poor Syd Finally passed away a few days ago...he got the bug so bad he couldn't perform anymore, anyway I am a rare bread of musician, I like to make really different stuff and really creative stuff, it may not be the highest quality but it is different, and new, there are so many genres of music these days, Alternative experimental about describes this stuff, These cds are extremly rare, in that no one has them, so later on they are worth more than that which we have a lot of!!! My favorite is Let the sun stop, because it's my best work, of my early 20s, i wish it was mixed better but when I used to listento it with no frame of reference it was entertaining, to me, and I'm not easily amused. -XERXEESE Check out the artist's website: http://www.soundclick.com/xerxeese Track List: 1. Electro Cash 2. Costplay Dream Away 3. Laugh at You 4. Going Down Save Me 5. Make the Grade 6. Magic Hat 7. Tiger's Thunder 8. Vintage Life 9. Gnomes 10. Quixiosy 11. Song 18 Other Genres:
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